Tuesday, August 29, 2006
8:53 PM
It's so ironic the way you try to grab people's attention, and somehow I think it's not working out according to plan. You try to be there for people, be it genuine or falsehood. However, you don't undertand that wht we need is a listening ear, not a messenger. Things that people entrust you with, you spread. Out of concern? I'm quite skeptical. I hope you'll understand & learn how to be the person you so desperately try to become, through genuine gestures and not through a facade. I'm not saying that I'm a gret friend, but these lies are getting out of hand.
Monday, August 28, 2006
7:03 PM
Today is a weird start to the rest of the week. I'm guessing everyone's happy that there are only 3 days this school week,except maybe for Miss Yap.
The teachers seemed especially cheerful today.
Like my chinese teacher, Zhuo. She was elated that no one forgot to do the ke ben exercise, she said she couldn't believe it. Her previous comment was that, if no one got punished because of ke ben lian xi, she'll win 4D :D Ag 4 people are miracle workers. She didn't scold me for asking Kelvin to shut up too.
Also, Mr V. Tan was very chirpy today, keep smiling while teaching.
Damn, I have to admit, today was quite a fun school day.
After school, we had an Aces' Day practise workout with TKG. Guess who tried to sneak in amongst us to see hot girls? Too bad, Cliff.
The instructors are so gay(happy) that we can't help laughing with them. :x I think all us leaders were very enthusiastic, gg for Aces' Day.
Went to Parkway to eat with Abby, Wanfong, Weirong, Jolene, Xin yi, Nick, Jierong, Wei jie, Jun Liang, Leon, Cliff, Zack. Met Darence and Jasmine at the traffic light. Lol.
P.S. I don't know how I got myself into this mess, but I'll get myself out of it. The truth hurts so f-ing bad, so does being backstabbed. I don't know what you're playing at, but I can see the loopholes in your plan. Watch out. One day, you're going to fall into a ditch you oh-so-cleverly dugged out yourself. Then, I'm gonna look and laugh. I can't believe I trusted you. It was all a facade, right?
Tag Replies
passer by: I wonder who you are.
weiru: Lol, I don't think you know who I'm referring to, but thanks anyways yea? (:
2.15.15.14: HELLO
Kest: My first tag from you!(: !Retsek OlleH
bokie!: Hello again, lol.
shearen: Loves you back! haha =)
Abby: Eh, f*** lah. just update liao ^^
Monday, August 21, 2006
9:03 PM
The horror of it all. The test results.
When it all comes down to getting your results, you can bet you're not ready for it, and worse,worried sick in anticipation or denial.
Unless, of course, you're the type that doesn't care about academics, which is highly unlikely in our freaking society.
Or, you're one of those slacker kind, like me, who knows to expect bad results due to lack of concentration or determination, to will one's self to study. I only care about the subjects I study for though.
Sad to say, I'm super disappointed in my geography. Shan't divulge further. It's embarrassing. Geography was the only subject that I studied, and I let myself down. Donna goh is a major loser.
Things are getting complicated. I wish I could be a good advisor and give my friends all the good advice they need that will help them get over these issues. Sadly, I can only listen to them. Why are things so complicated? Why can't life just stay simple and carefree? Then, many of us wouldn't be having all these irritating sticks up our asses that makes everyone so bitchy.
I hope, I wish, I pray, things will get better one day. That one day better be damned well soon, or I'll go nuts. I sound like I've been preaching. Hmm.. :D
When I needed someone to talk to, where were you? When I thought you were my friend, where did you disappear to? When I needed a shoulder to cry on, where the fuck were you? When I needed a confidante, where were you?
I ask myself all these questions when I was emotional, and now, I throw these queries aside when you start to confide in me again, just when I told myself not to be there for you, since you weren't there for me. Why? I got hurt, I got pissed. I didn't think you cared much. Yet, when you need me, I listen. I seriously wonder. I won't spill anything, I just want a reason as to why.
Btw, it doesn't relate to a singular "it".
P.S.Why do you always give me that look? It's as if I did something bad and you're giving me that scandalised facial expression. I know you're avoiding me. You don't have to make it so obvious that you are. Can't you be the nice friend you were before?
Saturday, August 19, 2006
5:55 PM
Common Tests are freaking over, man!
It's time to chill.
Drink some champagne, pon some classes, watch some movies and play dota! (:
Yesterday was one of the usual after exams barbeque with the usual crowd. It was really awesome. Kudos to the chefs : Boon, David, Winston, Abby and Imee! The rest of us were just waiting to eat =x Btw, Nicole and I ended up wearing the same colour combis. She wore a black shirt and green shorts. I wore a green shirt and black shorts. xD
Jon brought a Hard Gay - themed toy. Funny barrel thingy. We're supposed to stick the knives into slots. If the Hard Gay figurine pops out of the barrel you lose! We used it to play a dare game, that turned wrong later on.
We also taught some swakus how to play poker. Nobody wanted to learn Bridge, lols Boon.
Guess what we used as chips? Acorns. Lol. Off the ground. There were millions of them. Little ickle ones.
Nicole and I bladed. Haven't done it in a long long time. Still remember Ruffles Cheddar & sour cream. (: I missed doing that. Plus, we agreed to go ICE SKATING. ^^ I missed ice skating like !()@*!@_^!*(!)((!~*&#@!)^* <- that much. Lots of things going on that i didn't know about. I'm hoping everyone will take the situation light-heartedly. Oh well. I can't do anything to help. ):
About the dare game with the Hard Gay toy. Whoever manages to make the Hard Gay figurine, had to do a dare. Our dares were prank calls. Jon lost.
He had to prank a guy, with an indian accent. He had to pretend the person was Muthu, and Muthu owed him money. Lol, Jon's accent is damn good and he's damn funny. Everyone had to stay like 1m away from the phone so the person couldn't hear us laughing.
However, when Jon up, the guy kept calling back. He was using Abby's phone btw. He called like instantaneously, very hardcore. Everytime we pick up the phone, put it on loudspeaker, mute it so he can't hear us, all he says is " Eh, hum ji." Lol, damn funny. He's like a recording. Only know how to say the word "hum ji".
Then, Jon got fed up, answered and f-ed him upside down. Then he kept talking. So Jon went, "Eh, shut up lar boy. The more you talk, the more stupid you sound you know? Just shut up lar okay? " He threatened to call the police. Damn funny. Then Winston took over the next call. We played "Oh Mickey" on the ipod speakers.
Winston's conversation with the hum ji guy, it wasn't on loudspeaker.
Hello? I'm the dentist from parkmall. Oh, I'm Dr. Toh. Dr. Toh Toh Toh. (LOL) Why you so rude one? Singapore's english standard is already so bad, and you're degrading it further.
Then, the hum ji guy asked, " You're malaysian right?" LOL. wtf? How did he arrive to that conclusion. Then, he said "lan jiao" or smth. Winston's retort?
Winston : Lan jiao is penis la. I'm from PENANG, not penis.
Everyone burst out laughing like SIAO. That was the best man.
In the end, the guy said sorry. Lol, loser.
Punk'd gone wrong.
P.S. Nick, sorry I couldn't make it to the hotel party. Have fun raping each other, gay party. Lol.
P.SS. Weiru, sorry I couldn't go to Marina for dinner. >.<
P.SSS. Nicole, I'm here if you need to talk.
P.SSSS. Jasmine, you have my shoulder girl. (:
Tag replies
Richny: lol, sorry, didn't know. Anyway, it's mine now >:]
Shaun: Haha, yea. Both our sheeps are the cutest in the world. No more Meh Maeh chops!
Nicole: HELLO. I think we're the most embarrassing people. =x Synchronising clothes and blading movements. Choo Choo Train all the way!
Imee: Hello dear (:
kay;mushi: Thank you! x) Good luck with *aherm*
rachelbok: Yo. Haha, linked. Still got the glass piece?
Sunday, August 13, 2006
3:21 PM
I'm guessing everyone's really busy trying to cram half a year's worth of notes of all the subs into this weekend to prepare for the upcoming common tests.
You know what I say? SCREW IT.
Why do you bother to study? It's a common test, not Os or any deciding exam or anything. You just lose more brain cells if you study. Don't study until your brain fuzzes and your IQ drops. Just relax, and chill! Play some games, live your life! =x
Well, that's my theory, don't have to listen to me (:
I got a new nickname, Slacker Queen. I am honoured. :D I will try to live up to my title. Haha.
The poll is still on! Pls be reminded that you may only vote once as this blog poll disables anyone who tries to vote a second time with the same IP. Thanks!
Meh Meh no. 1
Meh Meh no. 2
P.S. Shaun, I changed the picture alr okay? x) Mine's still winning though. ^^
Replies to tags
Weiru : Thanks, dearie. I'll be here for you too yea? Lovelove.
Lin Yi : Haha, yay! Thanks for voting.(:
woOtnick : Lol, i highly doubt he'll like to see it. It's more for myself than him.
Jonathan : I wna catch Helen & have Carl's Jr!
Black : Haha..thanks kori. Yeah, I sort of just wish he'd understand.
Andy : Thank you, your advice means a lot. =]
Shearen : I know I can always count on you and F.O.F! x)
Amirul : LINKED! hottest guy in the world ^^ besides, hubert. Oops.
Jo : LINKED! Let's go out some time. (:
Friday, August 11, 2006
8:08 PM
This is a poll between Shaun and I to see whose sheep is cuter!
Here are the contestants:
Meet Meh Meh no. 1
Meet Meh Meh no. 2
Pls Vote!
5:00 PM
So, after a month of temporary closure, my blog is back! This new blogskin is temporary though. I just had a sudden fetish for this design. Oooh. :D
MY ADDRESS GOT TAKEN BY SOME STUPID CAR COMPANY. wtf? What has http://socialsuicide-.blogspot.com have to do with CARS. Damn you, car company.
Anyway, it's been a while. Things have happened. Now I know where I stand.
Thanks to Shearen, Sky, Nicholas, Cliffton, Weiru and David for being there for me when I needed talking to. You guys rock. (: I don't have to mention why their names are here, they know why they're here. It's these times where you guys were there for me, that makes me realise I have people who care for me.
I don't know what I was thinking, I think it was just plain stupidity on my part? I've never done that sort of thing ever, no matter how long I kept it in. I've never told anyone so directly. How could I have been so idiotic, ah? >.< I just want to know that I didn't affect anything though. Amazingly, I'm cool with the truth.
On another note, this is kinda personal. Read on if you want, though.
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To my dad :
I don't know if you'll ever come across this when you're using the computer for your work and stuff. So I'll just risk it.
Dad, I can't be who you want me to be. I can only be me, and to a certain extent, appeal to your preference of the ideal daughter.
I know you're my father, but sometimes, you make it so hard for me to live under your rule. You want the family to be very close, but it's quite impossible when you're gone every other day for work, or you go out drinking at night when you expect us to be home to spend time with the family after school.
I wouldn't say that you're unreasonable, but I guess you don't understand the current generation and our way of life. You're very strict with me, yes. You say I'm arrogant, I'm rude, I have no discipline. Sure, you could say all of that just by judging me alone. "Don't compare yourselves with others", you tell me. But, how is that possible?
I go to school everyday, I interact with people of different family backgrounds. There's no way that I'll never make a comparison with them. I've come to realise, I have no freedom.
You are goddamn prejudiced. You say I go out every Friday, but do I? Ask my friends. Out of all of them, I think I'm the most obedient kid. You harp on the same old events and think I do it everytime, thus thinking I "go out a lot", when it was actually only those few times.
You make it sound like I'm the cause/bane of all our problems. One stupid thing like arguing back, and you think I'm gna stage a rebellion. You always think you're right. I have absolutely no say in the argument, and you just go on, sometimes with only about half the truth. The rest, I guess, was your own assumption, which is really not fair at all. Why can't I have a say if I feel my stand is not totally justified?
You always talk about knowing the importance of whose "on top of the food chain", who you need to please, who feeds you. Yes, I understand fully. But sometimes, isn't it very tiring to always use your authority to win me, even though it's always within your grasp. Can't you compromise the times, when you say instead, " I'm your father, you can't talk to me like that." I want you to understand.
I just hope you'll get to understand what it is like to be in my shoes. To understand, not just to preach about what's right and what's wrong. Like you said, the difference between right and wrong is a very thin margin. Your right and wrong may not be what's right and wrong now. Even though I've done wrong, sometimes, talk to me, let me have a chance to explain. Everyone is unreasonable sometimes, I know I've been numerous times. Understand my plight, then judge me. Maybe then, I'll get a little more freedom.
Lovelove<3
